In this installment, I delve into a harrowing journey that began in 2021, condemning my personal life and escalating into a relentless cyberattack. From invasive comments on my blog to personal emails targeting not just me but those closest to me, this episode explores the deep impact of internet cruelty can have on your psyche.
In this installment, I continue to shop for antiques while discussing how the silent lessons in grace from my father, coupled with the meticulous craftsmanship of my mother, led me to costume design.
Directed & Edited by JD Urban
Cinematography by Jesse Turnquist
HMU by Earon Neeley.
Whenever I’m depressed, anxious or just need to work something out, I take myself to The Antique Warehouse in Hudson, New York. I love finding ways to repurpose vintage items almost as much as I love to repurpose the struggles we face in life. Recently, after moving, I needed to work out the vibe of my new environment, and this place, as always, delivered.
In this video, I discuss the role community plays in the magic of healing and what working in the theater taught me about vulnerability.
Discussing the psychological effects of cyberstalking while shopping for antiques.
In this video, we discuss the chaotic feelings that surfaced in me when attempting to wrap my brain around the legal landscape of cybersecurity.
While technology has proven to have the ability to connect us like never before, it has also created a marketplace that targets our fears and insecurities. I’ve learned so much about data brokering over the past year and what’s clear to me is that dysregulated people make the best customers. So instead of asking what can data brokers do to me, ask yourself what they can’t do to you.
In this video, I discuss what sexuality and gender in the workplace have taught me about connections over a pepperoni pizza at Half Moon in Hudson, New York.
Sharing a pizza at Half Moon (Hudson, NY) and discussing how my childhood memories of food shaped the way I raised my children.
This conversation led to a memory of my first experience with book banning and what it indicated to me about my body.
Video by JD Urban
Cinematography by Jesse Turnquist
Hair & Make-up by Earon Neeley
Sharing my favorite Christmas memory while shopping at the Antiques Warehouse in Hudson, New York.
Video by JD Urban
Cinematography by Jesse Turnquist
Hair & Make Up By Earon Neeley
In October, we dropped by Antigo, my favorite antique shop, on its final day in business in Hudson, New York. Antigo stood out as the type of place where you could reliably unearth a distinctive and reasonably priced piece with the potential for repurposing. So it was fitting that we devoted our time to exploring the hurdles linked to joy and the magical aspects of healing.
In this video, I dive into the dangers of cyberbullying and the surprising revelations that emerged from the narratives of my cyberstalkers.
I had two options before me:
(1) Head into Ubud to take care of errands, which meant dealing with traffic, scooters, and the bustling crowd—essentially embracing more chaos. (2) Lounge by the pool and let the attentive staff cater to my every need. What I ultimately chose made me realize that healing is an ongoing journey that spans a lifetime. All I needed was a place to begin.
In Bali, there is a beautiful tradition of making offerings. Throughout the town, you'll come across altars adorned with incense, flowers, and little tokens of appreciation, all symbolizing gratitude for the day or one's journey. These offerings accumulate over time, forming a captivating and heartfelt mosaic of thankfulness, prayers, and appreciation. I was truly enamored by this practice, as it embodies the essence of gratitude, expressed one small, heartfelt offering at a time.
Doxing or doxxing is the act of publicly providing personally identifiable information about an individual or organization, usually via the internet. Historically, the term has been used interchangeably to refer to both aggregation of this information from public databases and social media websites as well as publication of previously private information obtained through criminal or otherwise fraudulent means (such as hacking and social engineering).
They say you are never too old to try something new, or maybe it’s that you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. Whatever the phrase, I was forced to learn and understand the personal ramifications of this powerful act. On best advice from my team, I sold the cottage. It broke my heart.
Several months ago, coaxed out of the ball I was curled up in I returned one last time and sat down with a dear friend. We talked life and how is we even get to some of these places. We talked the meaning of home, then and now.
"This is a gift for you," a quiet voice in my head seemed to roar.”
"She is here to fulfill your dream of generational cookie making and love. Florence doesn’t need to be here anymore. She is here only for you, doll suitcase and all. The love is hers to give. Hell, she even brought your favorite doll’s shoes."
This does not feel like I thought it would. I never pictured Mom needing care, she was so strong. But the dominos fall and Mom moved into memory care and I traveled to close up her home of 44 years. The voice was right, this was for me. It was chance to look a life time of love in the face and see what it is I still have.